I learn something new....every day

Today, like every other day, I got up and went to work. And in my travels, I saw an article that I thought was great. And I shared it. Little did I know what came next. 
It was a light bulb moment.

Looking at yourself, truly, can be the hardest thing to do. As a fitness instructor people look to you to be the leader, the mentor and it's great. But we all can be better. 

Many years ago, I was offered the chance to teach Bodypump, but I declined, because I didn't want to video myself teaching. That is part of the pre-requisite to get there. And frankly, I didn't want to look at myself that closely. Probably too scared to.
But, I finally did it. And what did I learn, was that I became a better instructor because I had to watch myself teaching and coaching. I taped alot, because, I was critical of myself, constructively,  in meeting the objectives. 

On another note, I may be self critical, but I am also very self motivated. From the age of about 8, I went and got a job, because I had goals. It wasnt enough to be the cashier at McDonalds, I had to move up to hostess, at 16. When I worked at the hospital, it wasn't enough to work ICU, I had to cross train to the emergency room and dialysis too. When I went to Liberty, it wasn't enough to case manage, I had to do more. I saw many people along the way, being what I considered to be mediocre. Doing just enough to get by, but no, I had to do more.I didn't understand that, and to be honest, I still don't. Perhaps I am not meant to...... I am definitely driven to be more. Overchiever??? Sometimes....

So, when I shared my article, on the will to succeed, not everyone felt the same way as me, about it. I proceeded to re-read the article through a different view, and wow, I realized that the article was a little 'rough". Now, I still enjoyed it but I can see how not everyone would interpret it the same way. 


After class tonight, I was talking to a friend, and we were discussing my "issue", that I am so driven, to change the world, and help others, that she gave me some advice. 
This is advice I have heard before, and obviously, I need to think about it more...

You can't change others, but you can love them where they are. 
And when they are ready, or want to, they will come back. 

So, what did I learn? In order to make a change in the world, I must first change myself. 
I must realize that my passion and purpose, must take place internally and that although it's ok to share it externally, it needs to be done 'with gentle hands". A true understanding that everyone has their own purpose, and it may not match up with mine, and that's ok......

As said so well, in a movie once, "you aren't going to happy if you aren't going Mach 2 with your hair on fire".......That's about right for me. 
I may not slow down, I will not stop trying to improve, and I will continue to press on and hope to make a difference in the lives of others. 

I am working on it. I am truly lucky to know people who can help me become better as well... you know who you are.

In health and happiness, B